COCOA BEACH, FLORIDA: LIKE A DREAM

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“ᴵᵗ’ˢ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵗᵉˡˡ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈⁱᶠᶠᵉʳᵉⁿᶜᵉ ᵇᵉᵗʷᵉᵉⁿ ˢᵉᵃ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵏʸ, ᵇᵉᵗʷᵉᵉⁿ ᵛᵒʸᵃᵍᵉʳ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵉᵃ. ᴮᵉᵗʷᵉᵉⁿ ʳᵉᵃˡⁱᵗʸ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵒʳᵏⁱⁿᵍˢ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ʰᵉᵃʳᵗ.” .
― ᴴᵃʳᵘᵏⁱ ᴹᵘʳᵃᵏᵃᵐⁱ, ᴷᵃᶠᵏᵃ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ˢʰᵒʳᵉ
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“𝙄 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙛 𝙄 𝙩𝙤𝙪𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙝,
𝙄𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙢𝙗𝙡𝙚;
𝙄𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙛𝙪𝙡,
𝙎𝙤 𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙪𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙡𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢.” 
― 𝘿𝙮𝙡𝙖𝙣 𝙏𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙖𝙨
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“𝘎𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥—𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵—𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥…. 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘫𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘨𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘸, 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘴𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦, 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴, 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯.” 
― 𝘍𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘕𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘻𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘦

20april2020. Cocoa Beach, Florida

SAN JOSE, COSTA RICA: NIETZSCHE’S DEMONS

I want to write down everything I know about being afraid, but I’d probably never have enough time to write anything else. Afraid is a country where they issue us passports at birth and hope we never seek citizenship in any other country. The face of afraid keeps changing constantly, and I can count on that change. I need to travel light and fast, and there’s a lot of baggage I’m going to have to leave behind me. Jettison cargo. ~Audre Lorde

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What if some day or night a demon were to steal into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: “This life as you now live and have lived it you will have to live once again and innumerable times again; and there will be nothing new in it, but every pain and every joy and every thought and sigh and everything unspeakably small or great in your life must return to you, all in the same succession and sequence — even this spider and this moonlight between the trees, and even this moment and I myself…” ~Nietzsche

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a friendly platanito seller in the park. the kind of smile you welcome in the mornings.

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buying flowers
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eye contact

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Nietzsche’s demon, after all, comes to us when we are all alone, his question can be heard only in one’s “loneliest loneliness,” and therefore the answer cannot be given by consensus or on behalf of some impersonal institutions. It is, indeed, the most personal of answers — the one that always determines an individual choice. Of course you can choose anything you want, to raise children or get married, but don’t pretend to do it because these things have some sort of intrinsic value — they don’t. Do it solely because you chose them and are willing to own up to them. In the story of our lives, these choices are ours and ours alone, and this is what gives things, all things, value. Only when one realizes this is he or she prepared to face the eternal recurrence, the entire cycle, without the risk of being crushed. Only then is one able to say with Yeats, “[A]nd yet again,” and truly mean it. ~John J. Kaag

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a beautiful stranger walking by as i was taking pics of this mural in progress by gabriel dumani and hein. she stopped, smiled, posed, and then walked on without uttering a word. 

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i’d like to help this couple out, but i can’t be trusted with homemade liquor that i know nothing about.
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purple jeans made my day.

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street vendor leaning against his kiosk
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that mustache makes me uncomfortable. i’m sure he’s a nice guy, but…

 

Perhaps the hardest part of the eternal return is to own up to the tortures that we create for ourselves and those we create for others. Owning up: to recollect, to regret, to be responsible, ultimately to forgive and love. ~Kaag

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ticos like their subway sandwiches.

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every day is training day and don’t you forget it. 

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a tico walking by a crowd of tourists taking pictures of pigeons. 

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There is no insurmountable solitude. All paths lead to the same goal: to convey to others what we are. And we must pass through solitude and difficulty, isolation and silence in order to reach forth to the enchanted place where we can dance our clumsy dance and sing our sorrowful song — but in this dance or in this song there are fulfilled the most ancient rites of our conscience in the awareness of being human and of believing in a common destiny. ~Pablo Neruda

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this guy is selling avocados illegally. i wouldn’t have known that had he not frantically blown past me with his avocado crate when two cops pulled up at the light. this pic was taken once he returned to his spot and the cops were out of sight. looking right at me. his eyes kinda saying “yeah, this is illegal. so what. buy some.”

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april 2019. San Jose, Costa Rica.

KURASHIKI, JAPAN IMAGES: I GO INTO SOLITUDE…

“I go into solitude so as not to drink out of everybody’s cistern. When I am among the many I live as the many do, and I do not think I really think. After a time it always seems as if they want to banish my self from myself and rob me of my soul.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

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10jun14. Kurashiki, Japan.

KOBE, JAPAN IMAGES: TO SEE AS BEAUTIFUL…

“I want to learn more and more to see as beautiful what is necessary in things:—then I shall be one of those who make things beautiful. Amor fati: let that be my love from henceforth!” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

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10jun14. Kobe, Japan.